Oh, it's good to be back!

Thanks Tony Stark, but I'll take it from here ;)

De-texted in all her glory.

Well, not all her glory, I'd take her bodysuit off but then you know....one question that would probably be asked a lot these days, is what in the world am I doing? (Haven't been posting much at Animesuki). It's life I tell you. A lot of things, not just my health, or me doing some soul searching, or getting older, but a lot of things.

One of those things is facing the facts about a 17 inch monster laptop (that I'm currently "using"). It's tiring. Like, I haven't used a screen this big before, and it's tiring for photoshopping. And it's not just me, for the past few weeks I've been looking through a lot of information on laptops these days, and one of the things I came across was this piece at NotebookCheck: "However nowadays, more and more 16:9 displays with 15.6 inch appear. The reason why so many people like displays with medium size is, that this size is not exhausting for the eyes, does not need too much energy and the laptops can be kept quite compact." See the bolded part? It's kills me for this 17 inch lappy. I photoshop on maximum brightness to bring out the true effect of my editing, and I tell you, 17 inches of widescreen glory is a lot of ground for my eyes to cover.


But why do I edit on full brightness anyways? It's because of this (NSFW) particular 'shop that I made. Do you see what it looks like? It looks terrible. Yeah, I said that, and I'll say it again. IT LOOKS HORRIBLE. Well I didn't use the word "terrible" just now, but you know what I mean. Look around her mouth area. What the heck was I thinking? No, I saw it alles klar alright, but the problem I had was: It was on my previous laptop, a Sony Vaio with crap Intel Graphics and definitely not an LED backlit screen. First of all, I despise the Intel IGP graphics with all my heart. The damn things override how your screen looks, and what the bloody hell, it looked okay on that screen, but looking at Shirley with all this 17 inch of LED backlit goodness makes me see the ridiculous junk the Intel graphics really are. Now I feel like re-doing the whole thing again, ugh I can't believe it.


Next shop should really be that Rinne no Lagrange one I postponed for what, 2 months now. I am really late with that, and need to get it out soon if I want to get in on the upcoming Megami and Nyantype posters. Oh, and I would de-text the rest of the Evangelion pics, but I'm a big fan of Makinami and her... zettai ryouiki.... her glasses.... and her sniffing habit :P


This return to photoshopping was done to show the Moepic'ers that I'm not some "poor foreigner" lol.

So what happened to my header image?

Well, it seems like I violated Google's code of conduct. Specifically this part:

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publishers are not permitted to place Google ads on pages with adult or
mature content. This includes images or video content containing lewd or
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An open letter to the team behind Aquarion EVOL

Dear Writer/Director/person-in-charge-of-ruining-Aquarion-ELOL,

Screw it, this isn't a letter, I have kidnapped Crea in the glorious name of the Lolitron, and this is a ransom letter! I currently have Crea at donut-point, and if you do not comply with my demands, she will cry the most moe-est cry mankind will ever know all because you deprived her of this awesome Oreo donut. My list of demands:

My left eye is back to normal!!!

It's as clear as day because when I woke up, try the glasses, man does life look blurry. I take them off and boom, am I still asleep, things are clear again! I can tell because I tried it later in the day when I'm really awake and wow, I can focus properly again, I have my high spatial awareness again yahoo!!

And it left a trail funkiness in my wake. That set me back more than a month, and here I was saving up to finally convince myself to see the doctor if my eye didn't get better. Good thing too, now I can focus on saving up for what really matters: a new laptop (remember what I'm using right now is a borrowed laptop lol)

I gotta say what really helped my eye was gaming. Yeah, I meant that, playing video games. Anime was quite tiring to watch, so I was bored you know, so I figured why not play some games. I tell you, if there's one bad habit I have, it's buying games and not playing them. I even left my PS2 in Germany, with a bunch of uncompleted games. Talk about regret, but really, playing games did help because it's the only thing I can think of that has high motion. Well, what is within my limits of course, it's not like I can jump into a fighter plane and fly mach 2 above the ground, maybe it would help my eye but it sure would black me out :P

So gaming helped because most of what happened to me has to be eye trauma. Or shock, whatever it is, I know I was severely traumatized by that burning sensation of that glue on my eye, and the fact I had to seal it up for a bit really hurt me emotionally. So when I actually got to open my eye again, and made those custom glasses, I still was afraid to open my eyes. Just look at my anime viewing, it was averaging one episode a day, and even 1 episode every 2 days. So I decided, as much of a thinking junkie that I am, I also like intense high adrenaline gaming, so what better way to get my eye to not be afraid to see than to put it in a situation where if I didn't want to lose at gaming, my eyes better help me win.

So I've always had this suicidal gameplay style for FPS games, ever since the DF1 days (Have you folks ever gamed on a Windows 98 machine with 64MB of RAM, which is actually 56MB due to shared video memory, and don't get me started on those DOS games), and that suicidal gameplay is highly dependent on of course my high spatial awareness. Granted I'm only talking about single player since I haven't gone online since 2007, but not every single player experience is the same, as Splinter Cell conviction showed us (which I think was a glitch actually).

And honestly, I have that competitive fire again. While I'd like to play online to really get that drive going, I think single player gaming was enough to get my eye out of it's funk and start moving properly again. It wasn't just FPS games though, I even busted out a few mobile gaming via my phone and Nintendo DS. I also was afraid a few weeks ago about how my eye would shape up once I get a 3DS, but now that my eyes are normal, a 3DS might not be as bad as I thought.

Overall, not bad for healing an eye trauma in one month. Well, might be more than a month, but who cares, my eye is back, and it means more.... updating actually. My "about me" page is seriously lacking in details, and I also need to explain that one damaging reason as to why watching anime (a lot) and working with photoshop was more painful than it sounds. Not to mention there's some radical changes to my internet connection no thanks to Mr wireless carrier, so that's coming right up. What also helped was the massive amount of sleep I've been getting, definitely was more than what I've ever gotten the past decade :p

And then the anime I'm behind on, oh the horror. Make that, like 3, or that was 4 series, might be more, but I am behind by as much as 3 eps on each of them. I basically just prioritized Tasogare, Sankarea, and.... gee, I can't tell anymore. I do find myself behind on Sankarea too, so gaaah, it might be worse than I thought :(

Feel my birthday again!

It's V-E day!

Ah, I'm another year older. Before you guys start with those grandpa jokes again, I'm really not that old. Heck, I'm not so far gone that I can't get married anymore, but I'm certainly not young. In fact, I'll give you guys the first hint ever (if you haven't been reading my posts carefully on Animesuki): I'm not even 30 years old. (Yeah that's right, Malkuth senpai :P)

Now that's more like it

Let's have fun with photoshop shall we:

One week after

Today is the seventh day since my eye got hurt, and I've got bad news: it's not any better than then. My left eye is still blurry and I have extreme difficulty getting it to focus. When I try as hard as I can to actually focus on something, I can't help but blink, and all focus is lost again. And since I blink like any other normal human, I can't focus at all. I know that can't be right because if I just use my right eye, it can focus normally and re-focus properly after I blink. Everything I look at is a little blurry, and no matter what text size I look at, it always looks the same way: like a little blur around the edges.

Even using corrective lens', my left eye cannot focus. Now I am at aloss as to what to do. I don't want to go see a doctor because I'm very not fond of hospitals, and my own analysis shows that my pupil looks the same as my right, it reacts the same way to light, so the only thing I can think of is that my nerves must have been shocked from the intense pain I felt when the glue hit. Which of course would lead to eye surgery and that's just something I don't want to take a risk on (again, I have personal reasons why I avoid surgery options).

I can still see though, it's just a little blurry. I also can use my right eye to compensate, but lately I've been feeling it get tired a lot sooner than it used to (it was not my superior eye before, so I made no effort to perfect it). One other thing that's difficult, is that because it is not my superior eye, if I were to use it by itself, anything I see actually appears a little to the left than how it originally apears (for example, if I try to stand on a line on the street, I actually stood to the right of the line instead of on top of it). Teaming this poorly aligned eye with my blurry left eye is all the wrong combos I can think of.

The only thing I'm thinking of right now is that I have to get backto photoshop. I left a long trail of unfinished business and if I have to use just one eye, I'm going to. I can't let this keep me down. I still have my wacky mind, and while still believe my eyes are my greatest asset, by themselves they don't make me who I am. And who I am, I am a person who does not give up.

How do I start this...

In case some of you saw zilch of me the past week, I am currently recovering from a damaged eye from (wait for it): a defective pack of super glue. Now before you guys laugh at the deja vu of a holy bukkake, this is actually quite serious. The super glue exploded to more than just my eye, it affected my eye lid, and has caused me to lose 1/3rd of my eyebrow, half my eye lashes, and 1/3rd of the left side of my mustache. While I can simply grow back my facial hair, my biggest concern is my left eye, my superior eye, which is currently reduced to a blurry mess. A real blurry mess. As you can imagine done things with one eye is extremely difficult, and you can tell right now I am having a very tough time enjoying anything right now, and considering my two most enjoyable forms of entertainment (manga and anime) involves the use of ones eyes, well, it isn't fun anymore.

And I've tried too. I tried the latest ep of Aquarion with only one eye, and I don't know if it's because of Kagura or the fact my Mixy got manhandled by that doggy, but it was a painful viewing experience. So I thought maybe it was too much action, maybe some manga would help. I tried to use both of my eyes and have my right eye compensate heavily for my left eyes blurryness, and it was actually hilarious. What looks like a Quadruple Accel to normal readers looked like a Hexccel to me, and I saw a lot more Charles-chan than I think there was. Speaking of that, I didn't know "Charles" can be a girls name too...

Anyways, that's what it is right now. I have no idea when this will heal, if it will ever go back to normal, or if I can actually post properly anywhere. This blog post was filled with typos, I had to rely on the red lines I see to correct whatever I did wrong. I'm still not sure of that, but as it stands, I won't be touching Photoshop anytime soon, but I won't give up anime and manga and I will be using the rest of my strength to enjoy those two like I have been. It's painful yes, I never knew my eye could burn so much without a single flame in sight, but the thought of dropping those two horrifies me more than the current eyepatch that I have to keep handy in case my eye tells me it's too much. I am not giving up. Do I regret not wearing my glasses the moment that super glue burned my eye? Yes, I regret it heavily. But I know I would regret it even more if I let this current season of anime pass me by all because of a silly mistake I did.

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left eye damaged out till further notuice

Let's talk manga: and it starts with N

Man I seriously got to stop piling up drafts, so I hope you enjoy the first of many manga related posts I intend to do from now on.

Namiiro

Apparently based off a video game. I say apparently, because I have no idea what kind of game, visual novel, PS2 game, maybe a cell phone game or even a PSP game. Searching on Google isn't helping me either, while I'd rant about my connection speed, seriously, the Miss Uganda competition was in the top 4 search results for "Namiiro" lol (searching "Nami Iro" didn't help my cause for a 1st page result)