One week after

Today is the seventh day since my eye got hurt, and I've got bad news: it's not any better than then. My left eye is still blurry and I have extreme difficulty getting it to focus. When I try as hard as I can to actually focus on something, I can't help but blink, and all focus is lost again. And since I blink like any other normal human, I can't focus at all. I know that can't be right because if I just use my right eye, it can focus normally and re-focus properly after I blink. Everything I look at is a little blurry, and no matter what text size I look at, it always looks the same way: like a little blur around the edges.

Even using corrective lens', my left eye cannot focus. Now I am at aloss as to what to do. I don't want to go see a doctor because I'm very not fond of hospitals, and my own analysis shows that my pupil looks the same as my right, it reacts the same way to light, so the only thing I can think of is that my nerves must have been shocked from the intense pain I felt when the glue hit. Which of course would lead to eye surgery and that's just something I don't want to take a risk on (again, I have personal reasons why I avoid surgery options).

I can still see though, it's just a little blurry. I also can use my right eye to compensate, but lately I've been feeling it get tired a lot sooner than it used to (it was not my superior eye before, so I made no effort to perfect it). One other thing that's difficult, is that because it is not my superior eye, if I were to use it by itself, anything I see actually appears a little to the left than how it originally apears (for example, if I try to stand on a line on the street, I actually stood to the right of the line instead of on top of it). Teaming this poorly aligned eye with my blurry left eye is all the wrong combos I can think of.

The only thing I'm thinking of right now is that I have to get backto photoshop. I left a long trail of unfinished business and if I have to use just one eye, I'm going to. I can't let this keep me down. I still have my wacky mind, and while still believe my eyes are my greatest asset, by themselves they don't make me who I am. And who I am, I am a person who does not give up.